Girlfriends are like plants and guys are like cut flowers. Sure they're pretty and they small nice most of the time. But they don't last. But a plant or a friend, if you nurture it and take care of it, it grows and it lasts a long long time.

This week is all about craziness. On Monday to Wednesday i have to face up the tryouts for final exams. On Saturday, tryout from GO is coming up. On Sunday tryout from Vilmer will beat me up. Argghhh i need to stop all of this things. Please finals....can i skip you?

If I die tomorrow, there will be people who have totally different memories of me. To one person I might be the bitch who thought she was better. To another person I might be the ugliest person on this planet. To her I might be the gorgeous, lucky girl who she despised because I was spoiled rotten. To another girl I might be the girl who got really good english grades, so jealousy erupted. To him I might be the girl with the annoying laugh. To another guy I could be remembered as the girl who wasn’t anything to him. Maybe I’ll be remembered as the girl who was always on her phone. But none of that matters. You know why? By my best friends I’ll be remembered as the girl with the contagious laugh and the girl they would go to if they ever needed anything. By my family I’ll be remembered as the most amazing and beautiful girl. But most of all, I’ll be remembered by my enemies as the greatest thing they couldn’t add up to.

Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it's a mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them.

I read twilight, new moon, and http://thursdaypeople.com/ recently, all of 'em mesmerize me in so many ways.

The Old Year has gone. Let the dead past bury its own dead. The New Year has taken possession of the clock of time. All hail the duties and possibilities of the coming twelve months! Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right!

I know its to late to celebrate or greetings. But i didn't and don't celebrate or greetings, its inappropriate according to the bible. But today is 2009 and everyone try to fulfill their resolutions. I do think New Year's resolutions can't technically be expected to begin on New Year's Day, don't you? Since, because it's an extension of New Year's Eve, smokers are already on a smoking roll and cannot be expected to stop abruptly on the stroke of midnight with so much nicotine in the system. Also dieting on New Year's Day isn't a good idea as you can't eat rationally but really need to be free to consume whatever is necessary, moment by moment, in order to ease your hangover. I think it would be much more sensible if resolutions began generally on January the second or third or fourth hahahahaha. It doesn't take a New Year to do something right and good to yourself. It only takes one thing "determination" or maybe "discipline". Ciaaooo!

Lets talk about Bandung Institute of Technology or most known as ITB. Since my mother doesn't allow me to study out of Bandung areas so i have only one option from the holy trinity and it goes to ITB. I still remember when my brother graduated from ITB and got married, I told my family that one day i want to study at ITB because i want to get married quickly after i graduate from university, just like my brother hahahahaha. But it was a little girl's dream , as i grow up i know that ITB prides itself on its reputation as one of the country's centers of excellence in science, technology, and art, and was considered the top choice among Indonesia's high school students including me. ITB also recognize from their notable people and alumni such as our first President of Indonesia, Soekarno.
Sounds like desperation? yeess but nooo please . If ITB have a legacy admission, then there's a big chance for me to get in there. My father was and old alma mater and lectureship of ITB. SO WHY THERE IS NO LEGACY SYSTEM IN ITB ??? Even in America, children of graduates make up 10 to 15 percent of incoming classes at most Ivy League schools. Harvard accepts 40 percent and Princeton accepts 35 percent of legacies. I encourage top university here in Indonesia to adopt legacy admission. But reality does bites, and study does bites me too! So now, I need to get any open chances to study at one of the holy trinity. Its for the future yooo! But if i don't get any of the holy trinity then its fine, I'm ready to hang out with trustafarians and get my hair dreadlocked in Parahyangan or Maranatha. Just wish me luck with everything okay!

Top Universities in Indonesia 2008
  1. Gadjah Mada University (UGM)
  2. Bandung Institute of Technology (ITB)
  3. University of Indonesia (UI)
  4. Brawijaya University
  5. Bogor Agriculture University (IPB)
  6. Petra Christian University
  7. Institute Technology Sepuluh November
  8. Hasanudin University
  9. Sekolah Tinggi Telkom
  10. Airlangga University
  11. Gunadarma University
  12. Polytechnic Institute Surabaya
  13. Bina Nusantara University
  14. Parahayangan University
Top Universities in Indonesia 2008, according to Globe Asia’s Guide to Indonesian Universities
Public Universities
  1. University of Indonesia (UI)
  2. Gadjah Mada University (UGM)
  3. Bandung Institute of Technology (ITB)
  4. Bogor Agriculture University (IPB)
  5. Padjajaran University
Private Universities
  1. Pelita Harapan University
  2. Trisakti University
  3. Tarumanegara University
  4. Atmajaya University
  5. Parahayangan University
Everyone knows that the only real great universities here in Indonesia are the holy trinity: UI, UGM and ITB. Why i called them holy trinity ?? because how hard you use your money to get in there, they are still considering your knowledge. As for me, I lack focus and discipline. I know that money is all well and good, but in the real world, knowledge is power. Since i got a social class, the only chance for me to get into the holy trinity is majoring nontechnical major such as economic, fine art, and law. I choose Faculty of Art and Design for Bandung Institute of Technology and ironically thats it!!! Some friends and family encourage me to go to Parahayangan University or Padjajaran University or even worse Maranatha University. Eventhough my deductive reasoning skills are perfect for a place like those universities but place like 'em are full of an enclave of trustafarians and celebrity wannabes who major in drum circle or somewhat famous courses. I'm not looking forward see myself stuck again with my old Ella in the future. I need a university that can chance the boost my confidence and of course boost my knowledge, so please take me to the holy trinity!!

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